Wednesday, May 18, 2016

I Am That Mom

This one is for all the Mom's, Dad's, Grammy's, Grandpa's, Guardian's, Caregiver's, Etc. who go and go....YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!

I find myself wanting to sit at the computer with nothing really to say but with everything to say! The question remains; Where do I begin?

My mind is on complete overload. I find myself thinking is this how my little's feel when they are so completely overstimulated that they cannot calm down without help? Help of weighted blankets, toys or vests. Better yet without further help from the OT services they receive or just plain pressure massages, brushing of their skin, rocking back and forth or being held tightly wrapped in a blanket.

Today, I am in complete awe, as I find it so very interesting that their bodies endure this without the true ability to express verbally their needs. Though, here I am a grown adult experiencing much of the same. Is it my OCD? Is it my nervous system in disarray from my RSD/CRPS or is it just life while having one of those days? Whatever today maybe, it is an off day with little productivity.  Maybe somewhat needed under it all. I could think of it as a sign saying slow down, take a moment for yourself. Wait a minute, What? Take a moment, too much to do. Will my husband get it? Can appointments wait until tomorrow to be made? Did anything forget to get done that was pressing? Laundry but laundry is everyday in our household and truly not my favorite thing in the world if you know what I mean.....well, thank goodness for my AWESOME calendar and everything is all good in all areas!!!!

No really, I, myself, have walked back and forth from the kitchen to my office area many times today, very anxious in thinking I would like to take the time to write but not really wanting to sit with the reality of not really have the time. My mind racing about everything I could being doing versus what I should be doing. Again, in other words not very productive. As, I called today an off day but surely I am allowed because for most day, I am on point truly over productive most days. Where I can say I am "That Mom"....

I am truly "That Mom" because of My Mother who taught me everything about being a Mom. I know there is so much more than just the above picture of being a Mom but I never quit so if today was an off day for me then I am okay with that. Having an off day every now and again is okay when every other day I am going at one hundred fifty percent or more.
There has to be a balance somewhere, right?
Though I know that my own Mother is not with me here, I know she is with me in spirit and for that I am truly blessed and grateful.
I Love You, Mom!
"Just because you give birth to a child doesn't make you a mother! Being a mother means taking care of your kids, cuddling, watching them grow, watching them play and argue, being there for the good and the bad, and most importantly showing them your unconditional love every second of EVERYDAY!" - Unknown Author

GOD BLESS. Until Next Time...Make It A Great Day!

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Sunday, May 8, 2016

Celebrating Mother's Day our Way

Happy Mother's Day to all Mommy's across the world! Whether your child is homegrown, by way of adoption, relative placement or you are fostering, today is your celebration. This one day. Though, I believe for this mere moment it maybe should be more than one day but I will take today....Mothers you ROCK!

Today, I celebrate my day with all my kiddos except for one and without my mother who I lost a little over a year ago (who I miss both of them terribly and not a minute goes by that I do not think of them). We did things different today, we left our comfort zone and took the kids to breakfast and a movie. We were going to try the new Civil War - Captain America movie but settled for Jungle Book. The little's except one lasted all but the last thirty minutes. I am proud of them, I am proud of my husband too. He ventured in uncharted territory and survived with all of us. This is why I Love him.

When my hubby and I were blessed to be parents three times then decided to foster; we were blessed by way of adoption, four times over. This is why I never forget our children's birth parents as we are forever grateful. Though their choices at the time may not have been all right or in the best interest, our children came into our home and now we have a huge extended family. We are truly blessed. For those reasons, we remain in contact. 

As I share in the laughter, smiles, memories made today, I know that my Mother is with me and us. I know that she is sharing right a long. She is right here in comments made, in all the Little's laughter and play, in my oldest daughters smile, in the jokes by my teenage son or the hummingbird that comes to the window. My Mother never missed anything here on Earth and in Heaven she is our Guardian Angel! Happy Mother's Day Mom! Love you always. GOD BLESS


No language can express the power, and beauty, and heroism, and majesty of a mother’s love. It shrinks not where man cowers, and grows stronger where man faints, and over wastes of worldly fortunes sends the radiance of its quenchless fidelity like a star. ~Edwin Hubbell Chapin

Until Next Time...Make It A Great Day!

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