Wednesday, May 18, 2011


Is life that simple or black and white? Are you a red licorice or a black licorice person or like me you like both? Candy, what a wonderful thing to eat?  It is my daily ritual to eat candy and to make good choices. I do have a “proper” way to eat candy; if that is really true or just my way. I will contribute this habit to my OCD which I have managed to keep under wraps too many people in my life. My husband has come to tolerate it but why? My children have come to learn to live with it and love me for every weird compulsive thing I do. However, this condition I would not wish upon anyone….I ask myself why does one have a compulsion that becomes obsessive. Where did I learn this? My OCD became worse after my accident. The loss of control and having to depend on someone is not a great situation for someone who is OCD. I have to say though it has been a great learning experience for all involved. As things have changed some good and some not so good, it sure has put life into perspective. Why when tragedy strikes do we re-evaluate our priorities? We learn what is really important? Who is important? Is tragedy a life test for us? If it is a test, is there a grading scale or CURVE? Where is the syllabus? Is it posted somewhere in a life guide, maybe cliff notes?
When tragedy happens here come the person to try to make it all better…..a family member, a friend, and even a person you do not know, but the best is a doctor that just has maybe 10 minutes to spare. I have had many doctors, over 20 to say the least.  When you get to a point to ask to have your own leg cut off at the knee on three separate occasions, you know the pain is that bad and you just do not trust anyone. Sometimes you just want someone listen and not to tell you it will be okay, when really nobody knows. Now, if I was given a brown bag and told there was a cure and all I had to do was drink the contents, I would. Wishful thinking, I think or maybe something else!
What if there was a life guide? Can I make a suggestion and remove the word “cannot”. This word only makes a stubborn person more stubborn but also gives another person a way out. Case in point…once a doctor told me that I had to “forget my old normal life” and starting living “my new normal life without high heels”; what was he thinking? My closet without high heels, for you women out there, can you imagine your closet without high heels. If you can, I am unable to. Prior to my accident the only flat pair of shoes I owned were the new shoes I slipped in and one pair of flip flops, so to say after that doctors appointment, Nordstrom’s here I came. One expensive shopping trip later I was walking away with three pairs of 3” to 4” high heels. What was I thinking, I still could not drive and I had a large brace on my leg. So I put all the pretty shoes on my dresser and every day, I said one day my feet will wear each pair. Sure enough those pretty shoes have had their day!  All three of them, did I prove my point, Hell, yes I did! Never let someone tell you, you cannot!!!! That word or any form of the word should not be in the dictionary!
The more difficulties one has to encounter, within and without, the more significant and the higher in inspiration his life will be.Horace Bushnell
As always, smile to stranger you just may brighter their day, indulge in a piece of candy, take a breath, love your family and friends, cherish a moment with your children, they grow up in a blink of an eye, no matter what happens today… tomorrow is a new day!
Until next time….Make it a Great Day!

No comments:

Post a Comment